Feelings

When she breaks your heart, she feels nothing. She moves on quickly... like nothing happened. You feel as if a piece of you is missing. You can't eat, you can't sleep. All you do is think about her, wondering if she ever misses you. You're depressed for weeks, months, sometimes longer. But then you realize what's important in life and you decide you need to worry about yourself. You soon move on... and she's stuck watching you smile... and realizes she messed up... 

She'll regret everything. - Unknown

It's been over a year since I last posted here. Nothing much has changed, except...

Why are you waiting? Tomorrow isn't guaranteed. - Unknown

I've moved on. But what does that mean? Have I completely given up? Has God lied to me? Was I absolutely wrong about the answers to my silent prayers? Do I not care for her anymore?

The answer is a strong, emphatic NO! So what does that mean?


There are far, far better things ahead than any we leave behind. - C. S. Lewis

It means that I will no longer let the hope of our reconciling overshadow and dominate my day to day life. It means that there's a bigger picture and a purpose for my life that needs to be fulfilled for the One that I have my hopes in. There is a purpose for my life that goes beyond the reconciliation of broken relationships. Part of that purpose is to cultivate my relationship with God.


It also means that the door is not locked. If she comes knocking, the door will be opened. There will be healing to be done for both of us. There will be prayer as well to confirm what happens will be God's will.