Some significant things have been happening in my life lately. A month ago to the day, my heart stopped pumping for six minutes immediately after a treadmill test. That has led to an ICD being implanted in me to help regulate my heartbeat.
I've also become more curious about spiritual warfare and gifts of the Spirit. Having been blessed with a gift in the last couple of weeks has had me thinking about how God wants to use me since I've had my life extended from certain death. I've also had time to reflect on my beloved.
I've been thinking about how warriors in history dealt with relationships with the opposite sex before battle. The Greeks came to mind in thinking about history. My understanding is that when they marched off to battle they did so without women and their families tagging along. This was so that they would not be physically drained because of the women and be mentally focused on their responsibility as warriors. That mindset changed a few hundred years later when the concept of camp-followers came about for the warriors pleasure.
Sir Galahad, one of the Knights of the Round Table also came to mind. He was one of the mightiest knights. He was reputed to be celibate and pure. He was given over completely to serving the king and most of all, serving God.
I sense that God is preparing me for a battle of great proportions. I am still waiting expectantly for God to provide my beloved. I also sense though, that He is saying that's on the back burner as I am being prepared for battle. I need to focus on what is at hand and He will bring my beloved to me later.
It is difficult at best to be obedient since I've waited so long in my own mind, but obedience is what is needed at this time. The story continues.
